Happy Birthday, Mom!
Today is my dear mothers birthday. She would have turned 55 years old. My mom died 14 days after her 41st birthday. She was so young, as was I. I was only 14 years old when I lost my best friend, my mom. This year marks 14 years that she has been gone. I had the best childhood and was taught so much about life through the eyes of my mother. I am so THANKFUL for every single moment we had together! I think about her daily and see her in me constantly. I use her teachings every day and strive to be the tenacious woman that she was. My mom exemplified what a strong woman is! She will forever be my hero.
14 years ago, I wrote this poem I am about to share with you. It was shortly after moving to San Jose and meeting Jessica. I recently just found this poem in an old childhood keepsake box my Dad had in storage. It is crazy to read it now and have some of the same feelings while others withered away. I hope this poem shows you the feelings of me at 14, a motherless daughter.
I Am A Motherless Daughter
(To my lovely Mother)
I am a motherless daughter, away from everything she loves
I am from a small town where everyone knows everyone
I have never been away from home until now
But I have grown to love this city too
Someday I want to make my family proud
I am a motherless daughter, away from everything she loves.
I wish my mom was still by my side
I feel happy when we reminisce about her gorgeous smile
I worry about the day I get my moms’ age at death
I am sad because she left me with no notice or even a real goodbye
I get frustrated when no one understands the feelings I have
I am a motherless daughter, away from everything she loves
I dream of the day I see her eyes glazing into mine again
I understand I have to play the cards that are dealt to me
I make a stand for anything and everything I believe in
Sometimes I don’t speak my mind about my true feelings at a certain time
I try to be loved but no one will ever love me how she does
I am a motherless daughter, away from everything she loves.
By: Raynita
